I didn't realise that it has been 9 days since I last post..

I've been having backache since last week. I don't know if it is because of this that causes me to think a lot. Having backache causes me to think of my crooked spine.. Will I be paralysed or whatever? If I can turn back time, I seriously definitely would not want that incident/'accident' to happen.. My useless back is really giving me a lot of problems..
Not only thinking about my back, I think of many other matters.
My parents, money, house bills, part-time jobs, studies/course (if I could enter Poly), band, future..
Well, it is not that I want to think of all these.. It just keep coming to my mind.
I don't know why I would feel numbness in my legs.. Has it got to do with the backache I'm having? Just by moving a bit or to walk here to there, my back and legs would be in pain.. How great isn't it.
To prevent me from thinking all these especially when I was about to go to bed, I'll just watch tv.
I used to sleep at 8pm+ then 9plus, 10plus, 11plus and now, 12plus..
I used to wake up at 11am+, then 10plus and now, 8am+..

Why am I thinking all these??